请教高手下列中文的英语翻译.(尤其欢迎试剑丹驰来指点)

Question

第一句:我甚至不知道我该朝哪个方向去努力!!!
第二句:我想他们即使给我一个理由,那也不是真正的理由.
这两句话的背景是这句话的主角被公司炒了鱿鱼,他想知道公司为什么炒他,但是他想了想,觉得老板或者说人事部门也不会告诉他实话的.

期待有人有比试剑丹驰更精彩的回答......
云钰静龙能解释一下吗？你的句子里我N个单词看不懂。。。。。。。。

Answer 1

1、I even don't know my focus.
2、Even if they give me a reason, I don't think it will be a real one.
呵呵，不知道满不满意

Answer 2

看一下：

I don't even know how to spare my efforts .

Whatever they would give me as an exuse, if there is one, as far as I can see, should be a bam.

如何？高手们来评论一下？

Answer 3

I don't even know where I should focus my mind/energy on.

Even if they would give me a reason, I don't believe that'll be the real one.

Answer 4

1. I really don't know which direction I should strive toward.
2. Even if they gave me a reason, I don't think it will be a truthful reason.

Answer 5

1.I don't even know which direction to strive toward!
2.I think the reason they even gave me was not real.